Saturday, February 23, 2008
Yesterday Jinzhi asked me a question on the bus. How will you feel if you your PW group did not get A?
I realised I would be very disappointed with myself, because i had let the team down. Sometimes as a leader, i have to make many decisions. Even though i still stand by my decisions, it is no doubt that every decision can have a huge impact on the project. If PW really gets B, i will really feel very guilty...
In the past, I had to make many decisions too. And not all are right. But i guess i have learnt...slowly to take into account more people's sentiments. Thankfully in the past, i have my six loyal EXCO mates in NCC who will follow whatever decisions i make and die together with me. Even in PW, i have 4 talented group members that worked hard with me to create our proposal. No doubt, throughout all these years, i have offended people and disappointed people. I have made decisions that impacted many others. I have failed to care about the feelings of others. I had been too result orientated. Thats why i am changing. I guess, we will only learn when we face such crisis.
That was why throught the years, i have turned from a 100% result orientated person to someone who take into account the feelings of teammates. Is this decision wrong?
However, at times, i have failed to give every single teammate a sense of contribution. Was i wrong to not accept all the ideas? Did i make the wrong decision to only work on some?
Being the chairman of the smartest class is also an interesting experience. Its not that i have never been the chairman of a class before, but this was a whole new experience. I was wondering, why am i getting so political in my decisions. Looking that the other chairman, their task was simple, make announcement and run errands for teachers. How come mine become one that have to ensure the bonding of the class, one that have to take into account everyone's decision and feeling, one that have to organise stuff from class outing to making of shirt to the welfare of my classmates? To my 07 peeps, sorry if at times i made a decision that pissed you off. I have tried, really to get a win-win situation out of every decision. But its hard. Please do understand my rationale for making every decision. I have really undergone serious comtemplation before deciding on something. If you have any disagreements with me, just approach me. Please don't gather around and form a coalition against me. I need you to voice out. But 07 is a fun class! =) WoohOO!! I love 07/07.
Mazarin is a whole new experience for me. I am working with a very competent team, with members that are very strong in many aspects. I have never doubt the working capabilities of many of my teammates. I strongly believe that the proposal can go through. So i really apologise if i failed to take your feelings into account when i make decisions. Its hard for me, but i have to do it. Sorry if i had made you lose your sleeping time, made you all stressed up. We are pressing for time and everyone has to put in that extra effort. If anyone of my group members feels that they are doing too much or too little, please approach me. Although my group now don't have the ever so PIA huiru that will ask me 'what else can i do?', i believe that mazarin will be a good experience.
Leading is not an easy task.
Anyway, MY FACE LOOK VERY SLACK MEH? KNN, the teacher suspected me for COPYING HOMEWORK when i was the one who lent my friend to copy. SHIT man. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SUSPECT ME THINGS I DON't DO. I DID NOT COPY THAT PIECE OF HOMEWORK. ROAR. crap. I am gonna wear specs on monday and wednesday. WooHoo. Act guai. NO. I am GUAI. Roar.
water is PRECIOUS!
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